Opposite things

Why are all things  going against  me?
That always makes her hate me.

She will never know,what I wanted.
Rather She notices Which I never wanted.

From the beginning to end,
What I want is the purest land to, land on.
But what I got is everything that made me lean on.

I know I made mistakes,
Also I know that isn't the reason She hates.

I never wanted to do so,
All these happened by its own.
But Who will tell her.

I write my feelings on the papers.
Because this is the only thing
Which would not make a fun of myself for haters.